NOVEMBER 2023
Inspired purpose.: Can you recall the number of moments you've experienced that? If there aren't too many it means you quit too soon or settled too quickly. If that feels like a sucker-punch to the gut, it should, because you cut your good off or short and that hurts like hell. Impatience indicates we neither trust nor understand sequence or our place in the universe or sequence. We move in endless cycles but we can't jump a place or two ahead, we can't skip part of the process, it is a thorough, complete, comprehensive education we receive/partake in/earn when we come into the world to learn and take on the challenge of creating our divinity in the material world.
Desperation has a way of creeping into the fabric of our inner space/time and we wear pain as a result, and we act from this misinformed pain, crossing fingers, diving into disaster, hoping for the best, yet knowing, all along, that no good shall come from it. Still belly-flop we go, endlessly slamming into that water, wet bedraggled, hoping only to come out without drowning, only to do it all over again when we get out. Does this not sound like multiple "ouches". How much more of this crap are you going to take? We greet the world as enemy, others as "the enemies," but that designation is the toxic spillage of our inner world out into the world and we blame them for not being better than we -- for not having the strength to be unaffected by all the afflictions we suffer and have not yet surpassed.
So we blame. And we are impatient. Shall we add petty, immature and ego-laden to the list? We are in constant creation as spiritual beings: every thought, word, deed, feeling creates form and the specifics of the curriculum of your foray into epistemology. Created by you and the infinite wisdom of your own Spirit, you will have to balance out, fix any mess you've created, but there is no boomerang of punishment (although it can seem that way) it is a boomerang that aids you forward. Some call it karma but it's not judgmental, it's growth. When we create merit this also returns to us, as is the universal law. You are not exempt from any of it and ignorance is only bliss until your awareness expands and you wind up asking yourself, "Why the hell did I do that?" And, again, you will be forced to balance it out which can be so tough you may ask yourself also, "What did I do to deserve this?" Get the lesson, do your part, but do not ADD suffering on top of your KARMA. Working out of this law and its particulars are hard enough.
Why is it so damn hard? Because it's supposed to be. Are you being tested -- NO, no, and no. Why kind of psycho God would test you in such a way? We project unto Spirit human fallibilities and those are OUR problems & proclivities. Spirit knows nothing but LOVE and LOVE knows EVERYTHING. Therefore Spirit cannot be fallible. It's the self-contained system guaranteeing our growth that does the heavy lifting, it's a system that works and other than the entity that created that system, it is untouched and perfect and ready for you, me, all life to participate. You can try to work outside this system but you will fail, every person is subject to it, and every person is blessed or cursed by it: Your choice. If that sounds simple, to get to the point in your evolution when you're ready to move beyond your despair is a hyper-involved process and one you oversee, even when you're blind and cannot see.
If you can't see, you're usually in the "dark". My chow-chow has had a period of blindness due to entropian and I have found ways to help him (thank God, blessings are everywhere), and when it returned he walked over in an almost stunned happiness, just so glad he was, deeply and quietly so, and he walked here and there and in the bewildered state of gratitude and it made me love him all the more because I got to watch something appreciate life so much more than he had before and it made me want to cry for him in all the best ways because, yes, even a dog evolving -- anything evolving -- is a celebration of life! But back to the darkness, the two worlds are completely different dark and light, and if you lost your sight you would have to learn a completely different way of living to adjust. But this is just a comparison of how different the states are in the physical. In the spiritual the differences are much deeper.
In our miscalculation of our own feebleness we piece together a way to survive. As children we are too young too deal with the unfairness situations we too often encounter and can easily take the blame and pretend as though nothing bad is happening, in fact that may be the only option of defense we can muster as children, especially when those around us also ignore negativity and push it down only to fester and poison us. This is one way of coping with life's vicissitudes and the lack of a better environment that may have supported us in the past. It is unfortunate but, no one is guaranteed a good childhood, if you had one consider yourself lucky. We make agreements in Spirit before manifesting here, mistakes occur in our behavior sometimes -- we can go so off piste we're on a different mountain skiing down into foulness never intended -- but we came to help one another to grow and learn and sometimes this looks like total B.S. that makes you want your "money back" from life. (Hi Lenka!) She tells us to "just enjoy the show" but how, exactly, can one do that? Let's get into it.
The worst part of ignorance is when you actually believe you are powerless. People addicted to and attracted to power over others are motivated to prove they are not powerless. They feel so worthless they must dominate/manipulate/control others because they feel so diminished as individuals. They are consumed by darkness and become proponents for evil. There's very little left of a person when they're exponents of immolation, they are but puppets of cruelty being used cruelly. There's very little thought or choice, scheming perhaps, but real thought is relinquished and one is automatically pursuing one's down fall an will take out as many with them as they possibly can. Gossip is not dissimilar in that people who engage in it want to roll in the dirt, maybe get a thrill from it, while also wanting to engage others so that at least they're not alone in this disgusting habit. Every word, every motivation is recorded (yes, that punctiliously!) in order to add to the richness of your concomitant experience and subsequent lessons so you may move beyond such petty proclivities.
All in the world -- ALL of it --falls under a certainty of failure, a courting of calamity. But it goes far beyond courtship: If you are constantly miserable, in crisis, or fearful that only bad can come of things and they do! then you aren't just married to calamity you are "CALAMITY'S BITCH." When we are constantly creating disaster, in our minds, or wherever and everywhere else, then we are stuck in a world that is absolute ignorance because in this world there is no thought, there is but fear and desperation blame and insecurity. You disavow all responsibility here, your abdication of your life itself is what happens here. You cannot change, you have no power to change, you think you are a victim of life. It runs all over you and when it's not, your thoughts are grinding you down further, like runaway train with you standing with your hands on the brakes but you cannot move your arms to pull them. You don't think you have a choice.
Forget the hows and whys you punish yourself -- and let's not answer those issues with desperate solutions also created in darkness. Misery is so uncomfortable we make the mistake of legitimizing it, of taking it seriously, and while the pain is real, the provocations are not. All the expert analyzation of your myriad problems on their terms -- not yours -- will never produce a usable effective answer. Think about all the efforts and attempts you've made yet, all you've figured out is explanations and excuses for your weaknesses, not answers that may serve you, but interesting thought exercises that may glamourise your suffering, but when you're through messing with that nonsense, you'll want real solutions and that' when you'll be ready to implement them. When is an answer sufficient? When the problem is a
Desperation has a way of creeping into the fabric of our inner space/time and we wear pain as a result, and we act from this misinformed pain, crossing fingers, diving into disaster, hoping for the best, yet knowing, all along, that no good shall come from it. Still belly-flop we go, endlessly slamming into that water, wet bedraggled, hoping only to come out without drowning, only to do it all over again when we get out. Does this not sound like multiple "ouches". How much more of this crap are you going to take? We greet the world as enemy, others as "the enemies," but that designation is the toxic spillage of our inner world out into the world and we blame them for not being better than we -- for not having the strength to be unaffected by all the afflictions we suffer and have not yet surpassed.
So we blame. And we are impatient. Shall we add petty, immature and ego-laden to the list? We are in constant creation as spiritual beings: every thought, word, deed, feeling creates form and the specifics of the curriculum of your foray into epistemology. Created by you and the infinite wisdom of your own Spirit, you will have to balance out, fix any mess you've created, but there is no boomerang of punishment (although it can seem that way) it is a boomerang that aids you forward. Some call it karma but it's not judgmental, it's growth. When we create merit this also returns to us, as is the universal law. You are not exempt from any of it and ignorance is only bliss until your awareness expands and you wind up asking yourself, "Why the hell did I do that?" And, again, you will be forced to balance it out which can be so tough you may ask yourself also, "What did I do to deserve this?" Get the lesson, do your part, but do not ADD suffering on top of your KARMA. Working out of this law and its particulars are hard enough.
Why is it so damn hard? Because it's supposed to be. Are you being tested -- NO, no, and no. Why kind of psycho God would test you in such a way? We project unto Spirit human fallibilities and those are OUR problems & proclivities. Spirit knows nothing but LOVE and LOVE knows EVERYTHING. Therefore Spirit cannot be fallible. It's the self-contained system guaranteeing our growth that does the heavy lifting, it's a system that works and other than the entity that created that system, it is untouched and perfect and ready for you, me, all life to participate. You can try to work outside this system but you will fail, every person is subject to it, and every person is blessed or cursed by it: Your choice. If that sounds simple, to get to the point in your evolution when you're ready to move beyond your despair is a hyper-involved process and one you oversee, even when you're blind and cannot see.
If you can't see, you're usually in the "dark". My chow-chow has had a period of blindness due to entropian and I have found ways to help him (thank God, blessings are everywhere), and when it returned he walked over in an almost stunned happiness, just so glad he was, deeply and quietly so, and he walked here and there and in the bewildered state of gratitude and it made me love him all the more because I got to watch something appreciate life so much more than he had before and it made me want to cry for him in all the best ways because, yes, even a dog evolving -- anything evolving -- is a celebration of life! But back to the darkness, the two worlds are completely different dark and light, and if you lost your sight you would have to learn a completely different way of living to adjust. But this is just a comparison of how different the states are in the physical. In the spiritual the differences are much deeper.
In our miscalculation of our own feebleness we piece together a way to survive. As children we are too young too deal with the unfairness situations we too often encounter and can easily take the blame and pretend as though nothing bad is happening, in fact that may be the only option of defense we can muster as children, especially when those around us also ignore negativity and push it down only to fester and poison us. This is one way of coping with life's vicissitudes and the lack of a better environment that may have supported us in the past. It is unfortunate but, no one is guaranteed a good childhood, if you had one consider yourself lucky. We make agreements in Spirit before manifesting here, mistakes occur in our behavior sometimes -- we can go so off piste we're on a different mountain skiing down into foulness never intended -- but we came to help one another to grow and learn and sometimes this looks like total B.S. that makes you want your "money back" from life. (Hi Lenka!) She tells us to "just enjoy the show" but how, exactly, can one do that? Let's get into it.
The worst part of ignorance is when you actually believe you are powerless. People addicted to and attracted to power over others are motivated to prove they are not powerless. They feel so worthless they must dominate/manipulate/control others because they feel so diminished as individuals. They are consumed by darkness and become proponents for evil. There's very little left of a person when they're exponents of immolation, they are but puppets of cruelty being used cruelly. There's very little thought or choice, scheming perhaps, but real thought is relinquished and one is automatically pursuing one's down fall an will take out as many with them as they possibly can. Gossip is not dissimilar in that people who engage in it want to roll in the dirt, maybe get a thrill from it, while also wanting to engage others so that at least they're not alone in this disgusting habit. Every word, every motivation is recorded (yes, that punctiliously!) in order to add to the richness of your concomitant experience and subsequent lessons so you may move beyond such petty proclivities.
All in the world -- ALL of it --falls under a certainty of failure, a courting of calamity. But it goes far beyond courtship: If you are constantly miserable, in crisis, or fearful that only bad can come of things and they do! then you aren't just married to calamity you are "CALAMITY'S BITCH." When we are constantly creating disaster, in our minds, or wherever and everywhere else, then we are stuck in a world that is absolute ignorance because in this world there is no thought, there is but fear and desperation blame and insecurity. You disavow all responsibility here, your abdication of your life itself is what happens here. You cannot change, you have no power to change, you think you are a victim of life. It runs all over you and when it's not, your thoughts are grinding you down further, like runaway train with you standing with your hands on the brakes but you cannot move your arms to pull them. You don't think you have a choice.
Forget the hows and whys you punish yourself -- and let's not answer those issues with desperate solutions also created in darkness. Misery is so uncomfortable we make the mistake of legitimizing it, of taking it seriously, and while the pain is real, the provocations are not. All the expert analyzation of your myriad problems on their terms -- not yours -- will never produce a usable effective answer. Think about all the efforts and attempts you've made yet, all you've figured out is explanations and excuses for your weaknesses, not answers that may serve you, but interesting thought exercises that may glamourise your suffering, but when you're through messing with that nonsense, you'll want real solutions and that' when you'll be ready to implement them. When is an answer sufficient? When the problem is a
